2010

I envy the people who work at this Chinese restaurant in my home town. I'm sure it's one family that owns the restaurant itself, and all the family members work there. They are some of the most hard working people I've ever encountered. Maybe not so much hard working as focused. They do their jobs extremely well and they always seem content with where they are at the time. I wonder if any of them ever dream beyond the scope of that restaurant, or if their lives are limited to it. Whether or not they're bound to upholding the family tradition doesn't seem to phase them as they pour your drink for you every six minutes and smile the fakest smile you've ever seen. I'd like to think that they're all happy doing what they do. And maybe they are. Who am I to judge?

Last night I brought in the new year with wine and pizza and Jay-Z's freaky new world premiere video, as well as a strange twist of fate. A kid from my old high school came over. He graduated the year before me in my sister's class, and I hadn't seen him since then, but apparently he works here in Kansas City at the BKE that my cousin used to manage. It's such a small world we live in. After the ball dropped, I spent the rest of the night watching Paranormal Activity by myself, which makes me feel like a hypocrite, because just the other day my friend did the exact same thing and I made fun of him for it. I didn't even finish the movie, not because it wasn't interesting but because I was tired.

It's sad that my only goals at this point for the new year are to get a new battery for my car and to graduate my freshman year of college. I should be more focused on what I want to accomplish, but I know that when I figure out what I want to do, I'll do it. I'm going to turn nineteen in April, and I'm thinking that's when I want to get my tattoo. On my birthday, I mean. Wait... I just realized that I have another goal: get a tattoo. This year is looking brighter already! Just for fun, though, I'd like to make a ridiculous New Year's resolution that I know I won't keep--I resolve to pursue a modeling career in Italy and end up on the E! True Hollywood Story.