Indecisiveness

My goal over Christmas break is to decide whether or not to get a tattoo when I get back to school. If I do get one, I want it to be meaningful. Also, the question is WHAT to get and WHERE to get it. I've seen people get tattoos for a number of different reasons. My mom got my former step-dad's name tattooed on her upper arm, which was obviously a mistake, seeing how they're not together anymore. That reminds of me of something Angelina Jolie would do. I don't want to be Angelina Jolie.

Tattoos are permanent, and that, to me, is daunting. I'm not the type of person who is typically comfortable with huge permanent changes made to my body, but I feel like if I actually took that bold step and got a tattoo, it would be a giant leap of progress for my personality. I'm not sure how to explain that, but the "hit" part of this "hit-or-miss" decision thrills me. Maybe being forced to live with something that I liked deep down but regretted on certain days would be good for me.

I've always toyed with the thought of getting a colorful tattoo across one side of my chest and up my neck. That's me, though. Go big or go home. Naturally, my first thoughts about getting a tattoo were to get a BIG one and one that would stand out. Nothing small, because in my mind, a small one would be a waste of time and money.

I'm slowly working up the courage to consider this decision as a Yes. I'm waiting to see if I really want this or if it's just another passing obsession that I'll forget about in two weeks and wonder why I ever wanted to do such a thing. Recently, I've been taking huge steps towards understanding my personality better and exploring all the facets of it, and I want something that reflects those revelations, or better yet, exemplifies and symbolizes them.

I wish there were some way to have a trial period with tattoos, but I think that would take away most of the thrill of getting one.